Weird recession

Is it play in my face year or?????? I think our generation has become accustomed to acting out. A lot of people decide to be rude and inhumane instead of taking the path to growth and conversating. I have grown into a person who believes that I should communicate on almost everything (shout out Allison aka my life coach) because there is always room for the unexpected. I have been feeling like a lot of people around me have not been considerate towards me, unreliable, and completely ignore me unprovoked. I try to be considerate and give people the benefit of the doubt because everyone has their own life to live and go through trials and tribulations so I can't always be seen. I often jump to conclusions and assume I provoked someone to be purely mean to me instead of ultimately considering the fact that I am not the issue. I know myself and the type of friend I am/want to be which is always available and considerate of everyone close to me and I don't really think I have anyone like that at the moment. I often wish I had that 'bestfriend' girls are always promoting propaganda for but I have my sister so its chill :/ . To be real I feel like I just lost my best friend and it makes me sad (emphasis on sad) because it makes me realize they genuinely did not care for me the same way that I did for them, but again I have my sister so its chill :/ . This might sound like a pity party but I am actually learning and I love that, I love that I am experiencing turmoil because it means I am living. I reset my expectations for everyone and take them for how they are because at the end of the day I don't love my friends for who they 'could be' I love them as they are. But chat I have my sister so....