I am In a Fragile State

 I dont know whether I should be writing like "Dear diary" or from a 'this is for everyone else' standpoint. Nevertheless here we go.......I believe I am in the phase of my life where I am questioning the friends I have now and ones I want to keep. I having been going on for days in my head back and forth trying to navigate the direction I want to go in friendship wise. I feel as if nobody gives a nat anymore; there is no one left even my rainbow stuffed koala has left me which actually breaks my heart.I am learning that it is not as simple as being cool and funny. Where are you going? Can you break from routine? Are you open minded? How much do you care about others and most importantly how much do you care about yourself? I am facing a lot of neglect and I even neglect the feelings I have about being negleted. I am trying to figure out what is okay to forgive and where do you decide to cut ties. I love all my friends I feel they have been good to me in many ways then one, but there may be times where they treat me poorly. I do not want to be that person who lets their kindness be taken advantage of and walked upon but I also do not want to make the mistake of losing someone important to me and that needs me. Life is hard  but I see the beauty in letting go and creating more space for a better life. When do you decide to cut ties and how many chances do you give?